The Source of my Life




As I was sitting in my room, under the fan, I felt an urge to type something that is stirring within me. Here are the following words that begin to flow…

The Source of my Life


Oh life, be gentle on me!
I am just a weak human 
Right and Wrong notions are clear to me
Yet some crazy impulses within me override my reasons.

Oh, "How many times I made promises to improve?"
The Memory of failures, sadden me more.
Where Am I heading to?
Day by day, I am falling away from sincerity.

Inspiration continues to flow in,
Insights exudes from my failure,
Good will still flickers,
But they all vanish into the thin air.

You see me free!
No, I am bounded by my limitations;
My weaknesses have chained me,
I want to grow, but I am weak.

My body shivers in shame,
There is deep silent pain within me,
I am feeling it strongly,
Oh, I am just lonely.

I have loving parents, friends and well-wishers,
Yet, I am sad within.
So far nothing gives me true happiness,
Everything seems to be just passing.

Is there more to life?
Is there something beyond my sight?
Did I neglect something in my search for Joy?
Do I consciously try to avoid something?

In all that I do, I have tried to give you the last place
I have relied on myself, others and in material things
I have forgotten you the ‘SOURCE OF MY LIFE’
I am sorry!

I love you Lord,
You are my beginning and my End,
The source of my life.
As you own me, I want to own you Lord.

Forgive me my LORD,
I surrender to you all my failures.
Your silent love is stronger than my mother’s love.
Make me more like you. Amen.












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